“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.” - Thomas Merton

These words have been placed in front of me recently when I needed the comfort the most. I've been feeling stuck at an intersection of decisions. Feeling stuck is not new to me. Uncertainty, indolence, unassertiveness, passivity and fear of conflict or discord keeps me away from decisiveness. The road ahead of me always seems so foggy. I'm a slow burn when it comes to most things in life. It takes me longer time than most people to land, to decide, to do the thing.

Recently, I told my spiritual director that I have been praying for a clear answer. I went on to tell her, "I will say yes to whatever it is Spirit reveals to me. I will do the thing. I say yes, but just tell me, please!" She listened patiently then said, "You don't even know what you're asking. You are asking to be left alone. To do it your way. To have control. God wants relationship. God wants to be there with you every step."

I've started walking down the foggy road holding things with an open hand. Seeking God to anchor me to His love, walking along the road with my travel friend, Jesus, and looking ahead to see Spirit directing light through the fog.

First change is my website. You will now find me at www.sararandall.com. I'm working on the layout and flow of the site so you may notice some changes. Technology has way outgrown me, so that is coming along impressively slow.

Thank you all for sticking with me. Trusting me with your practice, your bodies, your injuries, your diagnosis, your stories. I hope you will stick around as I start to reconstruct my offerings.

LENT

Earlier this year I mentioned I have come to really appreciate the Liturgical Church calendar. We are entering into the season of Lent. It has only been within the last couple years I became aware of the Church calendar which cycles around Jesus' birth, life and resurrection. Beginning this week I will be inviting you to join in Lenten practices that help quiet the noise, notice internal distraction and draw closer to Jesus who never stops pursuing you.